gnomes, seroquel and snakes

i dont know where my mind is lately. i happen to purchase a traffic exchange, so, if you need some traffic to your website stop by http://www.HitGnome.com/signup.php?1000
i love that damn gnome... it is so funny because i swear i used to have this gnome that lived with me, i dont know how many times my husband's zippo lighter would just simply vanish into thin air.
one evening we destroyed our living room looking for this zippo lighter. we even turned the furniture upside down looking for this darn lighter. well, we managed to get our living room back together piece by piece. But no zippo lighter....... well, hours later low and behold what is laying at my husband's feet..... the freaking zippo!!!!! DAmn Gnomes, is what my husband always said..
when i stumbled onto hitgnome being for sale, i simply could not resist...... it surely has consumed me. but i love it.

my friend sandy has moved to an apartment now. i should be ashamed of myself for not going to see her more often, but i have been terribly sick. and i could not be responsible for getting her sick... i have made her some beautiful flower baskets out of the flowers that were left behind after the fire next door. i am planning on going by next week and bringing her flowers to her, that should make her happy.......

i still know know where my mind has been lately, my sister called me the other day, and dont know why i havent returned her call yet...... i guess either i have been so sick, and didnt care, or i just simply didnt feel like talking......... who knows with all this craziness in my mind........

i know one day this week i ran out of my seroquel,, oh the dreams came back just as vivid has ever....... i dreamed about my baby getting swallowed by a snake,,,,,, i dream alot about snakes..... believe me,,,, i wish the snake dreams would stop....... maybe i am being swallowed up by the world, i dont know...........

in her i know i am one

Reiki , Witchcraft and Energy

Good day my friends. today the Blue Lady has given me and incredible reality....
yesterday happened to be a Full Moon . i was planning to do a special spell cast for a friend that sought me out from www.experienceproject.com . . believe it or not, i pondered doing the spell for a month.... after many growing lessons of witchcraft, i have learned to only use my energy for the greater good...... i have grown so deeply spiritual with my energy through the soothing energy of reiki. before i was attuned to reiki, i could barely tolerate being around people... anywhere from walmart to a christmas party, i felt the energy of every single person i came near.. it felt like electric shocks jolting me wherever i went.......

finally, Reiki has came into my life. i am attuned to usui reiki, but, usui reiki energy is like a quiet little bunny in a spring field, it has a nice soothing energy, but it just wasnt powerful enough for my high level of energy.. finally after being attuned to the akashic records, fusion reiki, blue star celestial reiki..... i stumbled upon kundalini reiki......... WOWZAa
kundalini is a powerhouse of energy and perfect for me, my energy....... my kundalini energy is amazing..... i can actually feel the energy turn on in the base of my spine. Amazing!!
with the ability of withcraft and the power of reiki , the 2 have become one with me.......
i have learned that with the power of the moon, you can actually store your energy within the moon and basically broadcast REiki energy to your recipent..... this is a far more powerful method of healing and attunement. this can best be done during the full moon........ although i have just became attuned to this through the Blue LADy........

whenever the moon is full call on me for a healing loving spiritual energy attunement.....
this attunement will bring us closer to our spiritual energy that dwells within us.
the name of this attunement will be named Blue Lady Reiki...........
there are no symbols to learn with this form of reiki. this healing energy is drawn down from the energy of all things and is magnified 10 fold on the night of the full moon.. this energy attunement will be an energy source for all to tap into, but a must have for reiki healers and witches. can you imagine all the possibilities with this energy source?

are you ready to tap into this energy source? the moon has been gazed upon since the beginning of time, imagine it??????? get your Blue lady REiki attunement today......

When One turn beComes aNothEr

my thoughts have drifted once again into the Land of Faire,,,
i have wondered all my life about my childhood. there is so much i chose not to remember as a little girl that i lost all memories of that time period in my life... i wondered why i found it so hard to mother my first son, well, it had dawned on me, //////////// WHY???

during my visit with my daddy, i noticed how he never even looked at the Phoenix.. the baby Phoenix just crawled over his lap with my daddy not even barely noticing His grandson.
DING!!!!!!
was this what life was like for me as a baby? not being held or loved or barely noticed.....

when one turn becomes another.......

with my boys, i have three.
my first born is just that.
First...
i love him so much.
i was so young when i had him, i hardly knew how to take care of myself, but we managed... i hugged and kissed you the best i knew how, i look at you now and you are a such a strong young man. if i had all to do over i would but only for you,,, my First........
Superman will always be my Hero.
Now, i ask myself,
did i hug you enough when you were a baby boy? i believe i did.......
did i let you stay up late with me and watch t.v. together? i know i did.......
did i let you have what ever i could afford to buy you and more? for sure i did.....
i made extra sure you had friends to play with while growing up with........

i dont think i am that great of a mama, but i try,,,,,, as we all do,,

what can i do better?

or a better question. can i get better?

as spiritual is as spiritual does....


my psychiatrist decided to up my dosage of seroquel.
also my zoloft has increased to 100 mg...... so, my body is just like WOW.......

i am just wondering when the Evil of my schizophrenia will come knocking on my door..... that's when i come undone............ my spirituality and schizophrenia just Dual at each other....... i believe that the evil schizophrenia are me and my demons at war.. as Simple as THAT

who do you have? there is Her.........

in her i know i'm one

You Can Do Magic

s ince i was a little girl in the summer months on the farm, i would always notice small zooms of colored light ,run pass me at any given moment, especially around dusk was when most of them would appear. i never thought much of it, i thought everyone saw what i saw, because my baby sister saw it too. no big deal, who would believe it? my sister and me still talk about it to this day, now,
do you wonder
if me and my sister still have the ability to see the fairies. YES

its always easier in summer to fall months for me to see the fairies
and if your opened minded, i believe you can see the Fairies too
i have helped many people
open their eyes and spirit to amazement.

you can do magic
you can see fairies if your heart desires