Crystal Engagement

It feels like years since he's been here
Phoenix, here he comes
I feel like the earth's been waiting
it's alright

i felt the spiritual energy of my son
i was awe struck, as i am discovering his crystalline energy
it is an incredible feeling knowing your son's spiritual energy contains far more than my abilities could ever reach in this lifetime. its very humbling

how many holes will he be able to fill.

since my last posting,
Phoenix has taught me of the Crystal Engagement.
A crystal engagement is when a Crystal child unleashes their spiritual energy and locks into yours. at the point of the crystal engagement many things can occur

the first of engagements, is the crystal confirmation engagement. this is when your crystal child confirms the fact they are indeed crystalline, this engagement can happen in a number of forms and is unique to the crystal caregivers. you will know when this happens, it is a feeling like none other

the second of the engagements is telepathy. the telepathic engagement is for everyday life with your crystal baby.crystal telepathy is like "mommy i need some milk in my cup.

the third engagement is crystal engagement messaging. crystal messaging is different than telepathy.
Crystal children messaging comes to us from the spiritual plane. the third crystal engagement is by far the most spiritual of all the engagements. During the time of this crystal engagement the recipient will feel like if they have just been kissed by god. this is when spiritual information is passed through the crystal child from the spiritual world to the recipient. during my first message engagement with my son, my eyes were burning so hot, and my face felt like it had extreme heat next to it, it felt like spiritual light being placed on me and my crystal.

the fourth of the engagements is the crystal healing engagement.
my crystal baby has never done this engagement with me. i do believe he has done this engagement before. one day he was at his weekly play date at the baby gym. there sat an elderly lady, my crystal baby toddled right up to her,never mind the play balls and the bubbles everywhere. he stopped and look right into her eyes's for maybe 30 seconds. then he stood before her and touched her hand but just with his pointer finger. then Phoenix just giggled and ran to play with the bubbles.
i looked at the elderly lady and she smiled so brightly. she just told me how beautiful his eyes were.

I love my dear Phoenix. Crystalline he is, protect him. i must.


in her i know i one

Autism, a Crystal, and The Blue Lady

it has been a struggle lately, my Phoenix is 18 months old and has been put under a microscope by the medical community. he simply decided he didnt want to talk, nothing no mama dada, nothing.
Phoenix can communicate with me through other ways though, i actually call him my little orca whale, because he loves to sing, and he sounds just like an orca...
but none the less, i was told he possibly couldnt hear and that's why he couldnt talk. which this scared the living daylights out of me, geez, the hearing test was done, and he can hear, praise the gods,, my Phoenix simply has a speech delay, one of the characteristics of crystal children, but also a characteristic of autism.
now, Phoenix's doctor has him under the help me grow program, where the state gets involved with Phoenix's speech delay. the social workers involved with Phoenix actually come to my home, to visit with him. and i still have the autism paperwork, which i dont want to fill out....

i drift to the land of faire
I have missed you, i told The Blue Lady..
i have just this for you The Blue Lady said to me
Your Phoenix will speak to you soon ...

then we were doing alright, Phoenix and me were on the Floor playing tickle.
sometimes messages have a funny way of getting to you, for i doubted Phoenix to be Crystal.
i placed my face on the bottom of Phoenix's feet, tickle, tickle, but a tickle of his feet wasnt what he wanted. i felt him lock into my eyes, as i then played pick a boo with his feet, then i felt the crystalline energy of my son embrace me, Phoenix told me to send energy to him, and if you are familar with REiki, i was sending reiki energy to him. and everytime i would send a wave of energy to him, he would start giggling, we did this over and over radiating through each other, with him giggling louder and louder everytime i sent him energy. then i heard The Blue Lady say to me, you have your Crystal Confirmation...........................................
after wards
i felt like i had been touched by the Gods, i have experienced many forms of enlightenment in my lifetime, by evoking the goddes herself, this experience with my Crystal Phoenix,, so far was the most spiritual, and devine of my entire life, i felt my spirit shimmering .
my son had given me a lesson, and that lesson is to help crystal mommies from my experiences through him.
so many crystal mother's dont know how to nurture the crystal energy of there child. and that is onething we must do....another thing Phoenix taught me, when a crystal mother is in doubt about the child being a crystal.... a confirmation will appear like nothing you have ever experienced before. and you will know and never doubt again. a young crystal knows nothing but truth........ and as a mother you must know it to be true.

and here i am once again back to reality, Phoenix said his first word thursday night, dada, and by saturday he said mama......... now he is saying bababa too....
unbelievable, but i must listen carefully to the Blue Lady..........

i recommend crystal caregiver's to learn Reiki, you dont have to pay a fortune for a reiki 1 attunement, besides i would do that 100% free if any Crystal Parent requests an attunement.
Crystal's are born to us for a reason, we did not choose them, they choose us.....

in her, i know i am one

another turn of the wheel

it has been a while since i have been here, today i decided to return to my eternally split mind. KNock, KNock on my door, says the Blue Lady,
I gotta get outta here
the one that you are looking for, you are not going to find her here
The Blue Lady Speaks to Me
i realize that the end of summer is drawing near...
I gotta get out of here.

why is this happening to my younglin's i ask her?
you have the strongest of younglin's.
why want my Phoenix speak to me,
he has child, says the blue lady, in many different ways.
he will communicate with you in time...

my oldest is not a younglin anymore, but so strong,
he is being tested now, sadly life gives us happiness, and love, and growing bonds that can not be broken, then they are snapped beyond reason testing our strength a little to soon.. even though love is ever lasting, the human touch and voice always disappears, only to return in the next life.. i pray i can give him enough strength


KNock, KNock on my door, says the Blue Lady,
I gotta get outta here
the one that you are looking for, you are not going to find her here..

the wheel turns and turns again.

may the gods give my second younglin strength.
i do not know if he knows what's happening around him
if he can see through the darkness of what reality has chosen for him.
protect him i must..

KNock, KNock on my door, says the Blue Lady,
I gotta get outta here
the one that you are looking for, you are not going find her here..

i want to return close to the water.
i want to get out of here.
before another turn of the wheel occurs,
i do not know if i will make it out of here.

in her i know, i am one

those flowers are blooming and my smile has returned

the winter in columbus was very difficult on me and spirit. it was so gray during the winter months.
maybe we will move south soon,, i have dreams and wishes of being back in the sun during the winter months. we draw so much energy from the sun's powerful rays, but when the sky is always gray, its hard to get that feeling of yellow, warmth, and the love of the sun.
now, that summer has arrived, my fairy garden is in a crazy bloom.. the petunias flowers are simply a work of art i must say.
i used alot of REiki energy in the growth and love of my fairy garden.. and believe it or not, my petunia's came back from last year. the little beauties simply seeded themselves. i barely bought any flowers this year, i will post some pics of my master pieces soon........ it just hasnt gotten that hot in columbus yet...
my elephant ears are growing jumbo too, they are such happy little plants..


i went to see sandy last week, she seems to be happy, and i wish the world could have seen how happy the flower baskets made her.
she smiled from ear to ear.......
amazing how that filled my heart...

i dont know where my spirit goes sometimes, it dwifts away and leaves me over and over.
to the land of faire
i am
half the sun
half the moon
i go for a walk
i want to go to church
but not to stay
what would i do there?
i had a talk with jesus once?
he made me get off me knees..
he said i did not need to kneel.
heaven is so far away

i have come to talk with you again,
and the vision still remain.
restless dreams i keep having
recurring dreams,, recurring dreams
the snake will not leave my dreams.

the moon is beautiful this evening.
as i write it gazes at me through the window.
i was wondering why i was shaking with energy.
beautiful it is

i was just wishing i was back home on atlantic beach north carolina, with my friends and my old world, that feels like never never land......

soon i will be free

in her i know i am one