Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Butterflies and the subconscious

i decided to make a stop in to my Eternal Sun Shine.
Over the Last nearly nine months, i have spent a lot of my thoughts over at http://autismandthecrystalbaby.blogspot.com/

Autism has become very spiritually enlightening for me. My three year old is a crystal child, i guess i cant refer to him as a crystal baby. HE's almost four years old now.

Phoenix is getting ready to start school. And i am glad. you have no idea how much energy it takes to keep him balanced. I often read about those sweet loving stories about the crystal children. I laugh to myself after nine more amazing months with Phoenix.
My crystal son walks both in the dark and light. where there is night there is day. when there is Life there is Death.
In the beginning of the spring there were caterpillars roaming the yard, and Phoenix was standing above a caterpillar with it standing looking up at him, and Phoenix lost his balance and stepped on the caterpillar. Charlie was devastated. One Less butterfly, i thought. I know.

well, I have had the biggest butterfly garden i have ever had. Hundreds of butterflies have stopped by our house this year. Not only that, we have around five or six hummingbird that live in our tree in the backyard.
Phoenix picks up the butterflies, looks at the them and lets them fly away.

everything has come to make more sense to me spiritually. I have learned that from a visit with some dear family members. its amazing what you learn if you just ask.

I would like to talk about the subconscious mind.
Crystal children are reported to be telepathic. Most are Austistic. because of their speech delay. I never thought how these children did it. How has Phoenix been able to get everything he had ever wanted and more without speaking like the "typicals"
I am going down a Path where it is revealing more of a subconscious thought is used for Phoenix to communicate. is the subconscious taking over his earthly body? is this Why we force him to talk and use his words? the subconscious is more powerful than we could ever imagine. Could the subconscious be our souls, traveling from life to life. Phoenix could be really mad at me for being born, and he could be rebelling refuses to be like the "typicals"
Understand i wanted Phoenix more than anything in the universe. I know he wanted me. I do not believe he could be this mad at me in his subconscious.
but he does fight until he knows he will not win, and then he gives in.

I wonder. I wonder tonight? why do i hear familar voices? I hear the sound of your voice, just as i hear my Phoenix. I know this voice has gone into the the highest realms of the afterlife. But i can still hear you.
So, is the subconscious our Soul? the voices from beyond, sound the same to me as my son.

In her i Know I AM One