trick of the beat

now, that the next phase of my life has begun.. its amazing what can happen in a matter of months. i have moved again.. i have a mountain view, but once again..
its just another day. just my surrounding have changed, sometimes i feel so sad,, sipping my coffee and chasing rainbows. i was once held down, fighting schizophrenia and my spiritually split mind. my journey has lead me to listen to my whispers, listen to my inner self....... but, i have to turn my head until this darkness goes.. i wish i could take a break, but its to hard to stay awake... alone again until , he comes and he goes but he always leaves...

the one that you are looking for?
could it be that i do not wish to be found or maybe forgotten.. maybe just a vision from long ago,
i dont know why i do that, meet people, make them apart of my life, then i move on again never to be seen again.. i guess that makes me a bit of a mystery, turn to myth..
i must say i am doing alright.. what can i do? i always smile at the people i meet...i'll just bide my time with you........ i've got to move to the trick of the beat.

i have forgotten how spiritual i have been born to be. i guess i must shut down that workings of my mind sometimes or i feel i will short out.
come what may,
but, then its rekindled, something happens,life altering,
a person i knew was pulled away before her time, i met her when she was 7 and she happen to have the same birthday as me.she was my neighbor. the same age as my sister, they were the best of friends growing up together... as she grew to be part of our family. now, at 29 years of age she has gone away suddenly. maybe in another life i will find you there.. to know, to remember, to love again old friend... i look at myself... i look at myself.. the floor needs sweeping... listen to your whispers

i've come to talk to you again, you left visions in mind that still remain. you spent the night dancing in my dreams, you heard my words and you might reach me, but the signs flashed its meaning.

the blue lady has me once again, she came for a visit, what do we talk about? how long will she stay. i thought the Blue Lady laid sleeping, i guess she heard my weeps..



in her i know i am one..........